Saturday, November 14, 2009

Focus on GOD not satan

I've never been one to give the devil much credit. God already won, what's to fear of him? Last night I went to a conference meeting at a new church. A friend of the family's was in from S.C. and spoke.
Wow.... what a lesson to be learned. I wish I had written down what was being said, but long story short:
God gave us all the power, each and everyone of us. Not satan. I think he's in Hell, where there is no God. You really think he can bother each and every one of us each day?
I don't think so. "If God be for you, who then can be against you?"
We make poor decisions, our flesh likes to sin.... we need to take the credit for our mistakes or shortcomings.... bad days and poor attitudes. A mere fallen angel has nothing to do with it.
Satan has no power over Jesus because he didn't sin, and if we live in Jesus and Jesus lives in us, Satan has no power over us. So let's stop giving him credit, and give the Glory to GOD!
P.S. I never said I was a good writer.... it's hard for me to type what I'm thinking/feeling so please bare with my choppy paragraphs.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Jesus is the real Superhero

Ya know, I'm really not feeling Halloween this year. Each year I enjoy it less and less. It's so hard to get away from stero-typical ghouls and goblins.
Our kids have been raised from the get go that Halloween itself isn't a Godly holiday. We do let them celebrate, Fall Festival that is. I won't allow credit to the devil, or satan, or any other bad spirit or demon.
The kids are allowed to dress-up, only as good guys. Instead of "trick or treat" at the door we say "Jesus loves you". We try and attend church functions where Jesus is still the SuperHero.
Anyway, I'm not totally excited about today, but, because my kids get such a big smile on their faces as they dawn costumes and eat loads of candy, I put a smile on too and remember that glory can be given to God at anytime....

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Happy Birthday Lizzie!

2 years and 9.5 months ago:
Me: No, I don't want anymore kids. We are definitely done, 3 is enough.
God: Just you wait... he he he I have plans for you.

A few weeks later on our wedding night:
God: Ta-da....

About 3 weeks later:
Me: Nathan, we can't buy a smaller car (after I crashed my car), we need a mini-van.
Nathan: Are you pregnant?
Me: Ohhh Yeahhhh!

9.5 months later:
Dr.: It's a GIRL!

My little surprise is 2 today. Although her pregnancy was quite unexpected, I was thrilled from the very second I saw the 2 lines. We were a little worried when she was diagnosed with a single artery umbilical cord but after a few tests it was obvious she was a healthy, feisty little girl.
She was born by c-section at 7:55am. She came out squealing and daddy and I cried tears of JOY. She was in a hospital commercial the 2nd day of life and slept like an angel. They used her for more than planned since she was so good.
She has been such a delightful baby. No longer a true baby she is becoming such a little girl. My tomboy who has to wrestle and get dirty while wearing her 'pretties'. She absolutely adores her brothers and they her. She has a huge smile which can't help but make you return the grin as well. I thank God constantly that he gave me this gift.
She insists on showers over baths, water over any other drink, and enjoys jalapeno chips.
Happy Birthday to my sweet baby girl.... we LOVE you!

Thursday, October 22, 2009


"Delight yourself in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart".
~ Psalm 37:4

But, what if you don't know what your heart desires? What if someone asks you what makes you happy and you can't answer? What if at age 16 your well-being became 2nd (or 3rd or 4th)... and you haven't gotten it back.

How do ask God for something you don't know?

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

A little crazy catch-up...

Wow, where do I start? Things are a bit nuts around here.

First off, my mom and step-dad have moved in with us. We all decided that instead of just 'getting by' if we all lived together for the summer we could all save up some money and create a bit of a nest egg. So 2 weekends ago they moved their belongings to storage and nestled into Lizzie's pink and green ladybug room. Its a little tight here, but worth it. My mom and I have one of those rare relationships. We are best friends and get along 99% of the time. We agree on just about everything and are totally capable of being in the same house together for months. I can even honestly say that Nathan and my mom get along just as well. He wouldn't dare complain about her as some men do about their Mother-in-laws... they get along as if he were her own son. (But I guess that would be kinda weird, lol)
Mom has been sentenced to a life of swing pushing, lol

Second, Nathan is job hunting. His job at CableOne is no longer. This just happened last week, after they moved in. Kind of a scary time right now to be looking for work. We are trusting in God to open the doors needed to provide for our family. Nathan has 2 offers on the table, both of which are a mental struggle for him. Please say a prayer that God leads him to the job that He has planned for us.
Father's Day was awesome here. The boys and Lizzie made a shirt with their hand prints. He wore it to church proudly. We went to a baseball game that evening and though it was cold, 48, windy and drizzly, it was a blast!

Baseball season is over tonight, and although it was fun... I am glad to have my evenings back. I will be happy to not have to rush dinner and wash uniforms last minute. The boys had an awesome season and next year I will have 3 boys on 3 separate teams, ouch! Watching them learn about the game and improving their skills has been great... they are so stinkin smart.

Lizzie is growing up so fast, as they all are. Her personality is really starting to shine. She smiles almost all the time but has a very quick temper. When she gets upset she does it fast. She is a thrower, she'll pick up any toy close by, including her car she rides on and chucks it, hard! She has a very feisty spirit. Thankfully, this never happens outside the home. At the store she is almost always an angel. Figures, lol She keeps us very busy and has been getting me up before the sun rises lately. She is getting ready to have her first haircut, really just a trim, even out her crazy curls just a bit. I never imagined I'd have a little girl, now I thank God for her each day. She's my girl!

Well now that I have typed this all out my life doesn't seem quite so nuts. I guess getting in a routine just helps. Summertime has been great so far, the weather has been nuts, but we are trying to enjoy each day.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


Yesterday, Monday, was such a fun day for our family. It's not that we don't have many, but yesterday just seemed different.

First of all, it got up to 95 degrees for the 1st time this year. I was loving it! Finally some warm, bright sunshine!
Second, my mom and I ran some errands, including a second-hand children's clothing store. I always love going and most of Lizzie's clothes have come from there. I have store credit from taking in a lot of her outgrown clothing.
I racked up big! I have to brag about everything I got....
3 pair boys shorts
1 boys shirt
1 boys sandals (Birkenstock)
1 girls shoes
1 girls dress
1 girls shirt
2 women's shirts -
All for $31.00!! Woohoo! Everyone loves a good deal!

Third, Seth and Joshua had their 1st baseball game. I packed a heavy diaper bag to keep Lizzie happy and coated everyone in sunscreen and out to the ball fields we went. The boys were super excited and played a great game. Although Joshua had trouble hitting off the machine, he executed perfect plays in the field. Seth was able to get on base twice and also, played well in the field. Nathan, my mom and step-dad joined the cheering section and although it was HOT! we all enjoyed ourselves.
Seth and Joshua at their game

Lizzie relaxing in the stroller

Then it was off to Nathan's work softball game. That's a lot of baseball in one day. Thankfully we were in the shade for this game and the boys had other kids to play with. Nathan's team was getting stomped, but made a heck of a comeback to almost win the game.
It was 10:15 before the house was silent, usually this would bug me since I love my quiet time at night, but last night I didn't mind so much. We had a wonderfully blessed family day together! I thank God for days like this!

Monday, May 18, 2009


Last night Nathan and I watched Changeling together. It is a new movie, just out on pay-per-view with Angelina Jolie. Though we have had it recorded for a few weeks now, I have dreaded watching it. Nathan has bugged me for a while and last night I thought I'd be nice and watch it with him.

The description of the movie is about a single mother in the 1920's whose son goes missing and the police return a different little boy to her... expecting her to just take him in and pretend.

Without giving away the rest of the movie I was just so sad the entire movie. I'd say my greatest fear is one of my children disappearing and never knowing what happened to them.
Nathan has always given me a hard time about being too protective of the children. He still thinks that since he was able to run the neighborhood at their age and he was OK then the boys should be able to do the same. Its not true... these days I trust no one... and my kids are my responsibility. I don't care how nice your neighborhood is, or how mature you think your kids are, truth is there are sick people out there who do sick things.
After watching this movie and seeing/feeling how this mother feels as her son is missing gave Nathan the slightest bit of insight. He told me I am not over-protective and he's glad I keep the boys close by. I cover the boys in the blood every time they leave the house. I trust God to keep them safe and healthy.

This movie is tough to watch, I don't know if I even recommend anyone to watch it.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Is it weird?

My mother-in-law is coming into town tonight. I'm excited! I get to see her about every other month. She lives in Washington, about 5 hours away. Is it weird that I get excited? How many women out there love when their MIL comes to visit?

When I told someone at the gym today they were like, "Oh, I'm sorry."

I don't take for granted that her and I have a great relationship. I make sure to tell her how much I enjoy spending time with her... and she does the same with me. I have been blessed with 2 very loving, easy to get along with MIL's.

No one else in either of our families has had a family of 6 (besides her), so she knows how it feels and never judges if my tables are dusty or if my floor isn't swept. (Although I always clean right before she comes, its instinctive I think)
She does my dishes while she's here and helps make the meals. She doesn't get anxious when the kiddos are being loud or they have toys everywhere... she just offers them candy and tells them to hurry and eat it before dinner, LOL

Here's to great mother-in-laws... I hope one day I am one of them.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

So many thoughts...

I have so many things right now on my mind. So many things I'd like to blog about, like my feelings about baby Kayleigh graduating to heaven, how this story and others are helping me be more patient with my own kids,(something I struggle with), how Nathan has made some positive changes and I am very proud of him, about a bizarre dream I had the other night in which I actually died,... but since I just got my computer back and I have 4 people in the house playing ball, its hard to find the time.
I will try to get them up this week... I would like to blog about everyday things... but sometimes its seems to trivial, especially when you look at what others are facing.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Seth is 9!

Seth's 9th birthday was yesterday. I can't believe how 9 years has gone by so fast. Yes, I know every mother says that, but it is true.

I was a very young 16 when I had him. Although I was married, at 16 you really have no idea how life is about to change. I was blessed enough to have the loving support of my family, friends and most of my church. (The youth pastor thought I should have an abortion or atleast give him up... that was NOT going to happen.)

I saw a midwife practice and loved them. I never felt judged and they were always very kind and caring. I was very comfortable with their laid back approach to giving birth. My pregnancy was textbook and I was induced at 42 weeks. All my friends showed up for his birth, even my friend who had college exams the next morning. My epidural was great, I pulled it out accidently and it was re-done. I was in labor for 8-9 hours and pushed for under 30mins. He was born at 4:19am... Not shabby for a 1st delivery. I think there were 6 people still right outside my door.

Seth was an awesome baby, hardly cried (once I learned about co-sleeping), nursed wonderfully and had a gorgeous smile. He crawled and walked early.
(I'm going to brag about him now, what mom doesn't brag about their child on their birthday?!)
He is so stinking smart. He is finishing his 1st year of ALP, which is an advanced learning class. It is a small class of 14 3rd graders from 4 different elementary schools. He is in 4th grade math and 5/6 grade reading. He amazes me everyday. He also loves sports and plays baseball, football and basketball. Above all this, he is so loving and has a caring heart. He accepted Christ into his heart almost 2 years ago. He's not afraid to shed a tear at a sad movie and has asked to help out families in need. I am very blessed, honored and proud to be his mother.

Here are some pictures from the past year.

His spring school potrait

At Uncle Chris's b-day party

This is his 'strike a pose' look

He won an award at school - and we were growing his hair out

10 things...

10 Things I Want to Do With My Kids This Year

10. Play outside in the warm rain this summer
9. Take them to Seattle to watch the Mariners play baseball
8. Go to a nursing home and let them read a story to someone
7. Take a professional family portrait and send pictures to our whole family
6. Have a backwards day where we do daily activities in reverse order, such as dessert for breakfast
5. Go to the water park that is in Northern Idaho
4. Camp out in the backyard, s'mores, hot dogs, the whole shebang
3. Have them pick out a toy to donate to a shelter, pick out food to donate at Thanksgiving, and help them remember how blessed we are.
2. Have a mud, cake, whipped cream, some sort of food fight.
1. Keep taking them to church and get them more involved with telling their neighborhood/school friends about God and salvation.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Sad people

I was on facebook this afternoon and saw an update from a high school acquaintance of mine. What I read shocked me, then saddened me. I don't know if this is Internet etiquette... but o'well... here is what they wrote...

"I just saw a shirt that said "Righteous Gangsta" with a guy praying, wearing all these chains...why can't people be Christians without shouting to the world that they're homies with Jesus?"

Isn't that so sad? I do not know if this person is saved and has a personal relationship with Jesus, but it sure doesn't sound like it. I can only imagine that people who say things as this are sad in their life. They must feel everyday that something is missing.
I love sports. I love wearing their logos and I love watching and cheering for them. But you can bet your butt I praise God the same way. I stand up, I sing, I clap, I dance... no team out there is more important than my God. I will wear His name, say His name, sing His name, cheer His name and be proud to do it.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Pray for Kayleigh

This little girl needs our prayers. After being born severely premature she has beaten many obstacles. She is 9 months old and if I'm not mistaken, her parents have yet to bring her home. She just had surgery, and though it was 1st thought successful, she is now having sudden, unexplainable complications. The Dr.s are now using the professional term for 'brain dead' Her parents are beyond heartbroken and cannot believe the recent turn of events. They love God and are trusting in Him right now.
We know God is bigger than a diagnosis. We know God performs miracles.
Can you please pray for this little girl and her family...

Thursday, March 26, 2009

If you fly away tonight...

"I wanna tell you that I love you...."

That is what I said minutes before he breathed his last breathe.... I followed with....

"I will see you in Heaven daddy, I know you'll be there waiting..."

Then I kissed his forehead.

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My dad died way too soon in life for me. I wasn't ready. His body might have been, heck, even God might have been. But I wasn't. I was pregnant with his 4th grandchild, and he'd barely gotten to see his others. I was a moron and moved out of state and he missed precious months with Seth and Joshua.

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"...If you fly away tonight, I wanna tell you that I'm sorry,
That I never told you, when we were face to face..."
I blamed myself for my dad's drinking once I hit about 16. Althought he was a stellar dad to me... everyone knew he drank alot. Once I became pregnant at the tender age of 16, him only 41, and 2 months later married, I wasn't a bit surprised that the drinking increased. I knew I was at fault.. If only I had been a better daughter, not gotten myself involved in such a frowned upon scandal.
I still often think this some days.... what would have happened had I been the daughter I should have been? Would he have missed out on the joy grandchildren brought to his heart?
Then... after he had gone to rehab and was apparently doing well... I up and move away? What the hell was I thinking? He had a great relationship with Seth, then 2 and Joshua, 1. But nooo, I followed my ex's advice and moved us 14 hours away to Texas. The heartbreak I know my dad felt is unthinkable. Saying goodbye to him in person the day after Thanksgiving was hard. My dad hadn't seen me cry in years, and I wasn't about to show him now. He left my house before he was forced to watch us leave in the moving truck.
That was the last time I saw my dad.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

"...Your lying there in this hospital bed
Wont you open your eyes
And lets talk once again.

If you fly away tonight,
I wanna tell you that I love you.
I hope that you can hear me, I hope that you can feel me.

Well I've been here all night
And Im watching you
Breathe in and Breathe out
Is it really you or just a machine
Thats giving you life and
Making it seem
That there could be hope......"

When I arrived at the hospital (thanks to God providing me with an insanely cheap ticket) I studied all the monitors. Seemed to me he was doing just fine... all the numbers looked normal or so the machines made it seem. After a shocking explanation from the Dr...... he was brain dead. Kept alive only by the medicine and machines. Everytime his blood pressure crept or his heartrate sped up I thought he was coming back. He wasn't.... he was already on his way up...
I felt as though we were giving up... could he really hear us and was begging us not to let him go? Would he bounce back and become the husband, grandfather he truly wanted to be? I recited Psalm 118:17 over and over to him. 'Thou shall not die and go on and delcare the works of the Lord"

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I miss my dad. He was only 44 when he left this earth only to find divine healing. I struggle with understanding his sickness but I don't blame him one bit. He was my father, he cheered for me at softball games, he furnished and painted my life-size playhouse, he cheated as he raced me to the back fence.... I never lacked of his love or attention.

I remember him on this day and I thank God that I know I will see my dad once again in a place where no sorrow, sickness or sense of time exsists..... Heaven.

Till then..... I love you.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Essay of Love contest

My step-father Mike entered an essay contest for Valentine's Day (at my urging). It's for a hotel here, an extravagant hotel that has themed rooms, jacuzzis and an air of romance. They (the owners) believe very much that couples need a place to escape and be romantic together.
He was lucky enough to get into the Top 5. The winner of this 'love' essay contest gets a free night in any room and a dinner for 2. Please read his entry below and if you would, vote for him at this link - ' Band of Love'

Here is his entry: (long but worth it)

Band of Love

Georgia slipped the band of gold around my finger, looked into my eyes and completed her vows. We were husband and wife.A week later, I sat in my chair, mindlessly watching television. I twirled the unfamiliar band of gold circling my ring finger. It was the first piece of jewelry I'd ever worn. It made me feel different.My life changed. I no longer thought of "me". I thought of "us". I had a wife. The band of gold proved it. From that day forward, people saw it and knew I was committed to another. It became a part of me. Whenever I sat idle, my right hand would reach to play with it. Other times, my left thumb would polish it - savoring the symbol of love.******************"Michael?" Georgia asked?I looked across our dining room table at her. Her brown eyes sparkled."What, Hun?""I'm pregnant." She smiled."You are? Are you sure?" I rose from my chair."Do you feel OK? Do you need anything?"I had an expectant mother to take care of."The doctor confirmed it today. And yes, I am OK. Now sit and finish your dinner.""But?" I stammered. "This calls for a toast. I'll get that bottle of champagne."I rushed from the table."Michael!" she reached for my hand. She rested her other hand on her stomach."I can't. The baby! Remember?"I stared at her and frowned. "Why."I paused. "Oh right! The baby! I forgot – no drinking.""Relax. I'm OK. Sit and finish your dinner."We sat and ate. Afterward, I reached across the table and held her left hand in mine. I looked into those sparkling brown eyes."Thank you, Hun. Thank you for wanting to be the mother of our children."I looked down at the table where I still held her hand. The flickering candle reflected off our bands of gold."I love you, future Mama."I lifted her hand and kissed her ring.******************"It hurts so bad!" Georgia screamed."Pant!" I screamed back. "Pant! Puff, puff, puff, pufffff!""Stop blowing in my face!" She yelled at me.Another contraction ripped through her body."Mrs. Smith!" the doctor said. "I need one more big push.""You can do it, Hun!"I held her hand, or rather; she gripped mine in a vice. I saw our hands. My fingers were white from the lack of circulation.The lights above the table reflected off our rings.******************"Look at her eyes, Michael! She's so alert." Georgia was in the recovery room. She cradled our little Vanessa in her left arm. I stroked Georgia's hair.My ring twinkled as her hair polished it."She's beautiful, Hun. Thank you."She looked up at me. "That wasn't so bad. I could do it again?"Tears streamed down my cheeks. "Honey, you mean you would go through this again? You had so much pain!""I want our dream of a girl and a boy."Her hand rested on the blankets warming our new daughter - the gold of her band accented by the white cloth.******************"Mr. Smith, meet your new son."The nurse smiled and placed him in my arms."Hi, Justin!" He cried and waved his tiny arms in response. I placed our new son in Georgia's arms."Thank you! Thank you so much!" I bent and kissed her.My left hand stroked her cheek. The gold band sparkled with her perspiration."I love you."******************We sat across the table from each other. A candle burned between us. Hushed voices from other tables filtered through my thoughts. I looked into those brown eyes, as I so often did."Happy anniversary, Georgia.""Happy anniversary, Michael.""Ten years! Can you believe it?""I hope the kids are OK.""Hun, they're fine. This is our night."I reached for her hand and held it in mine. Like the bands in a tree trunk, our skin had begun to show the wrinkles of life. The fire of the candle reflected off our rings, reminding me of a night long ago, when she smiled and said, "I'm pregnant."******************I sat on our sofa playing with my ring. I remembered forgetting to put it on after Georgia cleaned it one day. At work, I kept reaching for it with my thumb. I felt empty without it. I looked at Georgia's picture on the TV stand. I was alone. Our children were in their rooms, grieving in their own way. Georgia's urn rested on the credenza in the dining room. We'd brought her home from the service that afternoon. Her ring rested in my left palm. I had a decision to make."When do I take mine off?" I asked no one.I was afraid. If I took it off, would it mean the love we shared was gone? The band of gold stayed on my finger. When my thumb touched it, my thoughts drifted to past times and not to the future and the life we planned."When do I take it off?" I asked myself again.It was with me from the day we'd married more than nineteen years earlier. It'd been on my finger when I changed my children's diapers. When we took drives, my hand held the steering wheel. The ring reflected the sunshine. The day she took her last breath, I held her hand and the ring reflected the machines that had kept her alive. I reached behind my neck and undid the clasp of the gold chain.She'd given it to me on our first Christmas together.I threaded her ring onto it and started to put it back around my neck. I paused and put it down. The fingers of my right hand reached for my ring a final time. I twirled it around like old times and then slipped it off. I held it to the light. It was scratched and dented from the rigors of living. It joined Georgia's ring on the chain. My hand felt empty without its comforting weight, but the combined rings hanging around my neck soothed me - a reminder of our years together.******************Almost a year later, I stood with Ginny in a New York City court house. She took my hand and placed a new band of gold around my finger.The Justice of the Peace smiled."I pronounce you man and wife. Michael, you may now kiss the bride."Ginny slipped into my arms. Our lips met. I hugged her to me. On her shoulder, I saw my hand and the ring on my finger - a band of love.******************Ginny and I sat on our deck reading. I held my book in my right hand. My left hand rested on my lap. A sparkle caused me to blink. I looked down. The new band reflected the sun. Ginny looked up at me, "I love you.""Love you more.""Love you too."We played our game. She turned back to her book. I stared at my ring again. It meant more than marriage. Like life, it had a beginning and an end. I started one journey with Georgia."Until death do we part." we repeated - a beginning and an end.We followed the band of gold to her end."Gin?" She looked up from her book. "Yes?""I need to do something." She looked puzzled."What?" I reached up, unclasped my chain, and removed the two rings."Michael, what are you doing?""It's time to let go, Gin.""But they mean so much to you.""Yes they do, but it is time to move forward. It's like starting a new year. I need to let go of the old and enjoy the new. "She stood, walked over and sat in my lap. She wrapped her arms around me."I understand."I held up my left hand. "Look!"She stared at my hand. "What?""See how the sun reflects off it? I've been blessed to have you in my life. I have a new band of love, a new life, a new beginning, a new year and you. It's time to move forward with you."

*If this story touched you, please take just a second and email and in the subject put Essay Contest and in the text please put Band of Love.


Monday, March 16, 2009


Nathan and I watched the new movie Fireproof with Kirk Cameron last night. It's about a husband and wife who decide after 7 years to get divorced. The husband's father asks him to try 1 last thing that really helped him with his own marriage. It is a notebook and it lasts 40 days.

It is a really, really good movie! I would advise any couple, Christian or not to watch this movie together. Marriages are hard, no one wise has said otherwise. I believe that God laid out lots of ways in the Bible for it to be successful. But what happens when you don't read the Bible? Or if you don't even know God? How will you succeed in a life made by Him? I believe that all of us can use a little relationship help every so often and I think this movie was inspired by the One who wants that for us. What do you have to lose by watching it? 2 hours? Trust me... you won't regret it, neither will your spouse!

Also, Facing the Giants is wonderful too! Made by the same people and definitely good for the whole family to watch together. It talks about trusting God even when things aren't going well, especially when things are tough. Our sons watched this with us and it felt good knowing they were being influenced with positive media. We will be buying both DVD's.

If you watch either of them, let me know what you thought.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Great hubby

My very awesome hubby is in the kitchen cooking. Most of you should know that is rare, like very rare. His extent of cooking is taking us out to Applebee's or grilling steaks.
But I am very thankful, because my mouth hurts and I am tired. The dentist was very gentle with me today and I had almost no pain. Between my mom and hubby, I have sat on the couch and been waited on. It has been very nice and a night to relax is a huge gift.
Nathan is standing just a few feet away, patiently listening to me as I 'help' him make Hamburger Helper. Although I won't be eating it, knowing that my boys will be fed and happy is stress I don't have to feel.
My husband is awesome, I'm going to write about him more often.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

God's plan

Boy, If we didn't realize God has a plan more than now...

Nathan and I filed our taxes a few weeks ago. With him going to school most of the year we figured we wouldn't get much back. We were very surprised when our tax guy told us that we would recieve over $5,000. Like some have said, it pays to be poor, lol

Two days ago we still hadn't recieved our federal return. It was then we found out that our much needed return was seized by the military (DFAS) and going to pay back debt. ALL of it!

Wow.... We were making steady payments to them, but missed a couple near the holidays. We planned to catch-up with our return. Guess what, the IRS took care of that for us. We were kind of in shock. That was alot of useful money we are never gonna touch now. Like alot of people right now, we are behind on some important payments. Immediately Nathan and I had a sinking feeling, knowing that our past choices had put us into a bind. Within minutes though, sadness turned to belief, we knew that God had a plan. We have been praying more than usual the past couple of weeks, for God to reveal more of his plan to us. Well he sure did. We couldn't be mad or upset over this, we knew we had to keep going on. We prayed and told Him we trusted Him and that we would follow in His direction.
This was just a few days ago and God has surely shown himself. Nathan has sold more at work (he works for CableOne) in 2 days than some 2 weeks combined. People have literally been calling his phone asking for his services. God has poured the customers into Nathan's lap.
And then to top it off, I recieved a letter from the IRS stating that IF we live in a community property state (we do) then I may be entitled to 1/2 of the money back. Since it is solely Nathan's past debt, and not mine, then the government cannot take my part of the return. Woohoo! We trusted in God completely and He has not let us down. So, I filed the paperwork and hopefully in 6 weeks I will look at God's blessing in the form of a check.
He takes care of our needs.... when we believe in Him!

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Idaho Stampede

So our next door neighbor is the score book keeper for the Idaho Stampede. They are a developmental NBA team. They feed into the Raptors and Trailblazers. Our neighbor was nice enough to offer us unlimited tickets to the games, woohoo! You know how we love sports.
I whole heartedly believe that God supplied these tickets after we prayed for more oppurtunities to go out together without it costing so much.
I love being at games. It is so much better than watching on tv. The sounds are so much more real. We normally get a drink, maybe some peanuts and settle into our seats. The team is really good this year and we enjoy watching them put a monkey stomping on their opponents. The boys really enjoy going, although their attention span isnt quite long enough. Good thing the arena is kid friendly. Last weekend Seth caught a ticket from the blimp and got a free 14day workout. Nathan caught a t-shirt and gave it to Seth. Im thankful I am able to take my kids to such games, buy them a popcorn and enjoy watching their excitement. Tonight we are going as a whole family, my mom and Mike included. Im really excited and very thankful for all the little things we are blessed to do together.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Poor Lizzie

My sweet baby Lizzie has been sick. Very sick. I guess this is her 1st time having more than just a common cold. She started throwing up on Thursday afternoon. It was almost like having contractions, every 10 mins she would tilt her head and gag. This went on until 1am when we finally doozed on the hard, living room floor. The next couple days were a blur, Nathan and I spent our time watching Lizzie, laying with her, and trying to get water down her. We both stayed up till 3am one night and he stayed with her until 5am one morning. It is so sad to see your pitiful child who trusts you whole-heartedly to keep them safe, lay still with no color. I am thankful that it seems to be just a terrible bug and not anything more serious. I am also thankful that the 30-something times she has thrown up has been on the kitchen floor or I had a cloth to catch it and not on the carpet. Somehow through this God has kept her hydrated, even when she had no fluids for a whole day. I am hoping as she is waddling around right now that she is on the up-hill road to feeling better... we will see....

Update Wednesday:
Lizzie threw up 2x during the night. (That makes 33 times since Thursday, yes, ive counted)
Her Dr. is ordering bloodwork and urine today. We will see if that shows anything unusual. I just want my baby back bouncing around the house. If this is just a virus, I rebuke it to Hell, lol

Update Saturday:
Lizzie did not throw up last night! Thank you Lord! I did give her nausea medicine, but hopefully she is getting better as well. She is back to her demanding self today so thats a good sign. Thank you for all the prayers and good thoughts. I hope to never see this 'bug' or whatever it was again!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Things you have done

Copied this from a wonderful friend Emily.

Italicize the things you have done in your life so far.

Started your own blog
Slept under the stars
Played in a band (if school counts)
Visited Hawaii
Watched a meteor shower
Given more than you can afford to charity
Been to Disneyland/world
Climbed a mountain
Held a praying mantis
Sang a solo
Bungee jumped
Visited Paris
Watched a lightning storm at sea
Taught yourself an art from scratch
Adopted a child
Had food poisoning
Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty (you can't anymore)
Seen the Mona Lisa in France
Slept on an overnight train
Had a pillow fight
Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
Built a snow fort
Held a lamb
Gone skinny dipping ( a couple too many times)
Been to a Broadway show in NY
Ran a Marathon
Been in three states at once
Ridden in a gondola in Venice
Seen a total eclipse
Watched a sunrise or sunset (best at the beach)
Hit a home run
Been on a Cruise
Seen Niagra Falls in Person
Visited the birthplace of your Ancestors
Seen an Amish community (It was wonderful!)
Taught yourself a new language
Had enough money to be truly satisfied
Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
Gone rock climbing
Seen Michelangelo’s David
Sung karaoke
Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
Visited Africa
Walked on a beach by moonlight
Been transported in an ambulance
Had your portrait painted
Gone deep sea fishing
Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
Kissed in the rain
Played in the mud
Been to Grace Kelley’s grave in Monaco
Gone to a drive-in theater
Been in a movie
Visited the Great Wall of China
Started a business
Taken a martial arts class
Swam in the Mediterranean Sea
Visited Russia
Served at a soup kitchen
Sold Girl Scout cookies
Gone whale watching
Gotten flowers for no reason
Donated blood, platelets or plasma
Gone sky diving
Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
Bounced a check
Saved a favorite childhood toy
Visited the Lincoln Memorial
Eaten Caviar
Pieced a quilt
Stood in Times Square
Toured the Everglades
Been fired from a job
Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
Broken a bone
Been on a speeding motorcycle
Seen the Grand Canyon in person
Published a book
Visited the Vatican
Bought a brand new car
Walked in Jerusalem
Had your picture in the newspaper
Read the entire Bible
Visited the White House
Killed and prepared my own meat
Had chickenpox
Saved someone’s life
Sat on a jury
Met someone famous (a couple actually)
Joined a book club
Lost a loved one
Had a baby (0r 4)
Seen the Alamo in person
Swam in the Great Salt Lake
Been involved in a law suit
Owned a cell phone
Been stung by a bee

Ok, now create your own post of "Things You Have Done"